sheluvstars's diary

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Made a wish, I can dream
I can be what I want to be
Not afraid to live my life
And fulfil my fantasies

Reaching out, for the highs
You inspired me to try
I felt the magic inside
And I felt that I could fly
I'm looking at the world in an optimistic light
You made me appreciate my life
'Cos when you came you were my

knowing the truth have never been a good ting. its either you get yourself hurt or you hurt someone else. once again my world have decided to take plunge and just tumble on me like it always did. and at this point in time. i just wanna be left alone. will you respect my decision? i know i shouldnt be doing this. but tats me. i don mind being happy with everyone. but i would rather be sad, on my own.

with the sudden backfire from my dad. it really brought me down. today is not a good day. it is super terrible. and for awhile i just wished that i had listened to myself this morning.

i woke up telling myself that today might be a bad day. and i want to just sleep and keep myself in bed the whole day and not care in the world what others are thinking about me. but ME BEING ME!!!! i still wake up. go to work. got a super scare from that mama cat. and ended up crying. and all shaken.

met him feeling all happy and excited despite what happened last night. despite me being tired and all worn out becos of the extra workload at the office. but i was disappointed when he decided to discuss everyting that we discussed last night, today! face to face! decision making. harsh truth. harsh allegations. everything just came out from his mouth. and all i could do was feel my tears trickling down my face as i keep thinking about that one person out there who dont even care. but here i am trying to let go of someone who loves me so much cos i feel that i am not being a fair person and also becos i am a bad gf for not loving him wholeheartedly. its true what he say. when all things fails all i could think of was letting go. i guess i was just not made for a relationship. or as others would say it. you just don want to zee. bluergh. haiz.

came back to a house of an angry dad. who just cant stop blabbering. suddenly he is turning his back at me and giving me all sorts of demoralising words. that kinda trying to deter me from being in a relationship. how fickleminded can parents get. and today he decided that he want to take back my freedom from me again. THIS ALWAYS HAPPEN AT THIS TIME OF THE YEAR!!! EVERY SINGLE YEAR!!! aarrrgggh!!!

You are the calm
I am the storm
You are the breeze that carries me on
When I said a truth
You wink at me
You're there for me
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>Gabrielle.

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