sheluvstars's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- you never know.... kita merancang. tuhan yang menentukan. true what was said. we can plan as much as we want. but at the end of the day. only HE can decide what will happen. as soon as i finish typing the previous entry. i received a phone call. a call that i never did expect but i still had to answer. the call that came with a voice on the other line telling me that i just lost someone dear to me. i was in a daze. i was still hoping against hope that it was a joke. but it wasnt. i lost my paternal grandad. yai raib. it was too sudden. i didnt know what to do. all i could do was cry. on my way to aljunied. i was still hoping against hope that it wasnt true. but my heart sank. when i arrived. as much as i know that its not good to cry. i broke down. cos the person lying on that bed was my grandad. i regret not visiting him soon enough. earlier in the day he asked his wife in a casual conversation,"mana zizi, cucu aku?" when i was told of this. i cried. i cried for i don't know how long. i have yet to come to terms with my grandma's death despite the fact that its been almost ten years. and now i have to deal with another. but this is too sudden. i didnt even get to seek for his forgiveness. yai. maafkan zizi pasal zizi tak datang earlier. maafkan zizi tak dapat jaga yai.... semoga Allah S.A.W mencucuri rahmat ke atas roh yai-ku...amin. to cat. ayu. roszel. thanks for being concern. to rafie. babey. thanks for answering my call and being there for me. to all who came. thanks. 8:06 p.m. - 2006-08-13 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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