sheluvstars's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- breathe the air. listening to anna nalick breathe. But you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable, sometimes. what you dont expect to happen, happened. and much to everybody's dismay, it is usually something bad. and being the weak person i am used to being, i cried. but lucky for me. he was there. to catch me just in time when i was about to fall because i was just so weak that all i wanted to do was fall to my knees and cry. lucky for me [again] i have a friend working who despite our disagreements and fight, still stood by me. and promised to make me smile again. who consoled me and told me that everything will be okay. altho both of us know. it isnt. heading back home was the best thing ever. to just lie down on my bed and cry my heart out to him who love me. who cares for me. who reminded me time and again that only i can decide how things will go. i went to sleep. hoping so much to sleep whatever sadness there was away... today. i have made up my mind. i cant sit around and hope for a change. i can't sit and cry and hope that every time i fall there will be someone to pick me up. i will change my life. but not at the extend of losing the person i love most. to that person who asked me if i am willing to lose him. please know that i shall never forgive you for everything that you said. everything that you asked me. in fact i shall never forgive you at all for everything that you didnt do for me and for all of us that deserved what we deserve. babey,loving you was not a mistake. never is and never will. no matter what happen to us in future. i wont regret my decision, ever. Cause these words are my diary,screaming out loud and I know that you'll use them, however you want to... 10:33 p.m. - 2007-04-07 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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