sheluvstars's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- so let's get married... i am exhausted you know. and because of that i am getting crankier and crankier by the day. and this is not good because i am taking it out on him. which is not a good thing. i regret it every time it happens. but but but..it will happen again either the next day or the next two three days. i feel terrible. really. but when it happens, i cant stop it on time. :( but looking on the bright side, i am looking forward to my trip in july and hopefully if everything goes well, another trip in march to visit kristine. if not enough money then go else where. sorry eh kris. but will try. hehehehehe. i am not sure but suddenly there is a lot of talks about settling down and getting married among the people around me. and knowing that a lot of people around me who is of the same age as me are settling down soon, makes me wonder. hehehe. sometimes, honestly, i envy them all. i even sometimes feel that sudden pang of jealousy. but after a while, i realize that it's not what i want yet. true. i want to be married, have a child and have my own family. but thats not something that i want right now. i guess i am just not ready. mentally and financially. and those people closest to me will know that i have to go through a lot more in terms of being prepared mentally. anyways. i still respect and am happy for everyone of my friends [who decided to get hitch] and especially to my cousin who will be settling down in august. :) if there is one thing i am ready for that will be GOING FOR A HOLIDAY!! i need this break. i really do. hehhehe. muacks~ zizi. 9:27 p.m. - 2008-05-15 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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